Explain this to me please.....

Even though I am married, have a huge number of siblings, 10 nieces and nephews, two jobs, six cats, one dog and a number of really good friends and neighbors I am incredibly lonely.

I wonder how I can sit amongst the chaos that is around me and feel so incredibly alone. I go out and talk with friends, sit with my husband and work an ungodly number of hours each week and yet I feel so alone. Is there no one for me to connect with?

I have visions of standing at the foot of the ocean screaming all of my thoughts at the top of my lungs. Would this make the loneliness go away? Would this release the anxity and fear that consume me?

I just wish I wasn't so lonely....

Moving Offices

Just about every six months the powers that be at my company decide they have a better idea of where I should sit. Yes, one of the two CEO's at my company likes to work on the seating plan. I know, it seems so crazy.

Well, he has decided I need to go in the office affectionately know as the "Fishbowl". It is called the "Fishbowl" because it has windows on two sides; the front and back of the office. Now, it is a very nice office. It has great light and sunshine abounds, but there is one small problem. The "Fishbowl" is about 1/4 of the size of my current office.

I am HR. I have many huge filing cabinets. I can only take one into the "Fishbowl". I have no way to consolidate. My extra filing cabinets will need to be moved to a hallway. It will be so convenient.

Also, the "Fishbowl" may not be the best place for difficult conversations. Hey Johnny, come on in the "Fishbowl" and let everyone in the office watch as you get fired, disciplined, spoken to, cry about your life, etc. Maybe not the best place.

But, despite all of the inconvenience it will make my bosses life easier and I will finally get some natural light, so I guess I can't complain too much.

Random Thoughts

1 - They killed off Captain America. I am no comic book fan, but this just seems wrong.

2 - It is so cold here this week. I'm not sure I will ever get warm.

3 - Why doesn't a certain person return my e-mail?

4 - My beloved is so cranky lately. Will we be able to make it through the next 7 weeks of school? And what will happen after that? Will he hold it together long enough to keep this job?

5 - I was looking at my marriage license today. I remember that day so clearly. We were so happy and full of hope and excitement. When did the reality of life overtake us?

6 - My Jets did something good this week. It is tough being a Jets fan in Patriots land.