Explain this to me please.....

Even though I am married, have a huge number of siblings, 10 nieces and nephews, two jobs, six cats, one dog and a number of really good friends and neighbors I am incredibly lonely.

I wonder how I can sit amongst the chaos that is around me and feel so incredibly alone. I go out and talk with friends, sit with my husband and work an ungodly number of hours each week and yet I feel so alone. Is there no one for me to connect with?

I have visions of standing at the foot of the ocean screaming all of my thoughts at the top of my lungs. Would this make the loneliness go away? Would this release the anxity and fear that consume me?

I just wish I wasn't so lonely....